Systemic Lupus Erythematosus is a systemic autoimmune disease. the immune system attacks the body's cells and tissue. In SLE, the body's immune system produces antibodies against itself, particularly against proteins in the cell nucleus. SLE is triggered by environmental factors that are unknown. The course of the disease is unpredictable, with periods of illness alternating with remissions. SLE is treatable through addressing its symptoms. There is currently no cure.

7.16.2005

I'm A Rare Find

Not so few people, my doctor included, have told me that it's very rare to find men with SLE.  I remember the very first time I saw my doctor in a hospital bed at the Philippine General Hospital 12 years ago.  She patted my thinning crown (due to hair loss) while talking to the resident physician and said, "Espesyal 'tong batang 'to."

True enough, most of her patients with SLE were female.  The only guy with lupus that I know, and so does everybody else, is deposed president Ferdinand Marcos.  It probably strikes men of great minds only.  Wahahaha.

Kidding aside, having SLE when you're a guy poses a problem which I think is peculair for men only.  We cannot afford to slow down, especially if we're breadwinners in the family.  We don't have the luxury of having to afford to take it easy.  We can't, for example, resign from work and look for less-stressful-but-low-pay work when our doctors advises us since we don't have husbands/boyfriends who can support us, not like women in the same situation as us can do.  Even my doctor acknowledges this.  When my doctor told me to slow down 12 years ago by taking leave from school for a semester, and then another semester, I could afford it because we were living with my aunt.  This second time around, my doctor knew I'll have some reservations because unlike the first time, I am already supporting a household.

In the end I guess it's always up to the man concerned if he wants to take his doctor's advice or reach some compromise somehow.  I'm not aware of any study on the life expectancy of guys with SLE, though I cling to my doctor's assurance that the probability ofa car driver dying of an accident in EDSA is higher than the probability of me dying of SLE.  It's not really reassuring but it'll do.  I am reminded of this quote from the HBO miniseries, Angels in America:
"So we live past hope.  If I can find hope anywhere, that's it.  That's the best I can do.  It's so much not enough.  It's so inadequate.  But still . . . bless me anyway.  I want more life."

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